EFY- I don't even know how to begin....

Well lets begin with the end.... I have been home from EFY for about 2 weeks now and i have yet to really go face the evils of this world. This is partially due to the fact that i work as a nanny Monday- Thursday 8-5:30, and partially due to me being scared to go bace]l to the real world. But sadily i couldn't avoid it any longer, Tuesday night i had to attend a sectional and my section was not the only one that had planned to have a sectional on this very day. One thing i did notice while i was there was everyone flocked toward me. It was weird everyone came up to me and was like hi, how was your summer? How is your mom? Who is that boy in your profile pic? It was like everyone wanted to be my best friend..... (which is funny because i always feel so alone). So not only did this make me curious as to why all of the sudden i have all of these friends but it made me happy. Now i am still not exactly sure why some people where so friendly but i am sure that others where attracted to "The Spirit Of EFY" that is in my countenance.

 Now EFY- as I explained last year after i got back- it is Especially For Youth is a week long youth-oriented seminar focused on fellowship and teaching the principles of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints (LDS Church). ..AKA the best week for your life. 

Unlike last years post I WENT THIS YEAR!!!  I had an amazing time, and I met a bunch of amazing people.

This years theme was drum roll please: Believe. Hope. Endure.
Every year they have a theme and every thing you do through out the week is based on that theme. There are dances, games, FHE(family home evening), devotionals, service projects, classes, workshops, talent show and best of all testimony meeting!!One of my favorite pass times at EFY is staring at really hot Mormon boys.... JUST KIDDING! No really one of my favorite pass times is playing games down in the lodge! Ninja, Kuncha, Big booty and SOOO much more. MY favorite quote is "If you can't have fun with out drinking a beer, you obviously have never hung out with the Mormons" and boy do we know how to have F. U. N. !!!!!!!! 

I really want to post all of my notes, but I will refrain for your sake. I will just end with my testimony. I know that the gospel is true. I know it with every fiber of by being. I am so grateful for Jesus Christ, my Savior's sacrifice for me. So that i might return to live with him again. I am grateful for friends in the church, we were all truly kindred spirits in heaven and I am especially grateful for those that lift me and warn me of things to come. I am grateful for the leaders of this church they are inspired my the spirit of God and not only teach us what we need to do but comfort and encourage us. I know that the Book of Mormon is the true word of God, that if we live by its teachings we will always have "The Spirit of EFY" and Saint will never have a hold on us. I know that Joseph Smith is a prophet of God and that he translated the Book Of Mormon correctly. And i say these things in the name of our Lord and Savoir. AMEN!







Like I said in my last post about EFY my aunt Leah offered to pay for my sister and I to go.  I am truly grateful for that, I learned to so much and I feel so much stronger. I have grown to have an marvelous testimony of family and why we were put on this earth with them. To learn and to grow and to HELP and most of all to love! Families are so awesome! 

Wanna FLY with me?

Hey again. It's Carolyn. I'm listening to Owl City, flying away with myself, and it provoked me to tell you more about me. I love my life for one, as shaky, crazy, annoying, and ridiculous it may get, I always look up. I love Owl City, I love classical music, and any kind of music that gives me chills, aka Eric Whitacre (a composer for you non-bandies) among others whose music just let's my fly away in my own world. I dream, literally, of going on a cruise and having the time of my life, as I have before, but haven't in a very long time and love the idea of cruising so much that I am highly considering working on one after graduating college. School? I'm a good kid, make decent grades enough to get into NHS what not, but I find myself becoming very lazy as I progress in my high school career. I dream of attending BYU!!!!! I can't wait, i literally am sceeming to find away to get there faster if you know what i mean. I can't wait to have life ALWAYS be like EFY(which will probably the next thing i post about). I want to get my associates in cosmetology and then get my doctorate in Family studies- psychology. I can help with problems if you need, and I really kinda enjoy it so have at it lol. I play Clarinet in band  and I am decent at playing, nothing more, nothing less. I am a proud and excited leader, I am Band Captain, this year and i am super excited/nervous to take on the challenge  Once again, for non-bandies, Band Captain is the person how is the face of the band, she is the band, she does everything and anything to make it run smoothly and she has the most responsibility. I am a JESUS FREAK haha I go to Church and spend a large portion of my life, everyday , doing something with the church, and if you ever want to talk religion or JESUS, hit me up! Uhh, I think that's where I'll leave you today, I know you're so desperate to know more. I'll fill you in later on the roller coaster ride of a life that I live. 

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I hate change

Today one of my really good friends from freshman year (who has since graduated) walked into guidance. Now silly me thought we could pick up were we left off gave set person a really big hug. In return I got a half hearted huge back and a pathetic smile. And while small talk may have been considerate it only seemed forced and awkward. It makes me sad, I wish things could just go back to the way they were.

I realize that as we grow older we have encounter hard situations but I had no idea that it would be so soon.

One minute you think someone loves you then they never speak to you, make rude commits about your believes, and insist that everything you do is wrong. The last time I checked I was just doing what I thought was right. You go from practically sharing everything and talking all the time to not even saying hello or good morning or how are you? It makes me sad, I wish things could just go back to the way they were.

Now because of change people are choosing sides. Almost like a game of man hunt, except you are left in a team that includes you and yourself. The other team/teams try to make you pick sides; choosing by who you like more, who is the coolest, who makes the best grades etc. The only thing that is racing around in the little extra room in your brain is "why can't we be friends?" and although it may sound like side humor to lighten the mood it's not. It's it actually how you feel. One team expects you to stab the other in the back while the others want you to spy and get secret info from the the opposing team's leaders. Keep in mind you are only one girl and all though you may have a little back up help from those how truly love you, you have you have to fight this battle on your own.

Then a ton of bricks crashing down on you. No friends, no connection, no one to help you out; paralyzed. You have to start making decisions and choosing over good, better, or best. Finally when you make a decision those situations left behind are still a problem. Because even though you make the best decision for youself it doesn't matter because you didn't do what everyone else wanted or expected.  In the end you are left and even worst situation. It makes me sad, I wish things could just go back to the way they were.

Even then you are not getting "feed" in the way you should. Their is not enough nutrients! So, you have to provide for yourself practically "feeding" everyone else on the way  because they are suffering from the same malnutrition. This famine dominoes to were you have to pick up the pieces. You are expected to do things out of your comfort zone and sometimes out of your ability. It makes me sad, I wish things could just go back to the way they were.

But don't forget on top of all of this turmoil and chaos you have that one thing. This thing has weighted you down since the day you entered this life; and  it will exist til the day you die. You won't let it weigh you down but others will use it against you and when they do it only makes life just that much harder. Judging and criticism only leads to unhappiness. It makes me sad, I wish things could just go back to the way they were.


The worst thing of all is not that you are changing its all of the people around you. Sure you may get a hair cut or a nice new dress, HEY your likes and dislikes may have changed but since day one you have always stuck to your guns. The standard hasn't dropped, the morals were never lost, the values never changed. Just the apathy of others.

Beauty school drop out...

Ok so really I am not going to drop out of high school to go to beauty school, but I am going  none the less.(Actually I am thinking about going but it's a very big possibility.) 
If you have any inspired(or not so inspired) answers please help!!


Here is the main issue:
1) Do I go at all?

• Beauty school cost a lot of money and the reason for me going is to help pay for college, and have an income if needed when I have a family. But is it really beneficiary to have to play, lets just say, 14,900 big bucks to get in?

• Will I be happy with graduating early and moving on?

Next issue:
2) If I do end up going, which one do i attend? Aveda? or Manhattan? 
This part people could be bias so I am going to make the questions general. 

• Do I go to the one far away or near?(both will equal out in gas money because of how many days of the week I attend)
• Do I go to the one with the one that is more expensive but a better education?
• Do I even go to Aveda or Manhattan?
• Should I go live with my grandmother in Utah and go to beauty school there?
• Do i go to the one that takes 13 months or the 7 and 1/2?

Next issue:  
3) Where do i get the money to pay for beauty school?

• Should I work two part time jobs this summer?
• Do I even meet the requirements to apply for financial ad?   
• Do I take out loans? 

Next issue: 
4) Do I only study cosmetology?

• Should I study just hair? Or do I do it all?
• Do I do everything?  Or do I just do the one that will make the most money?

 
 

Someone is watching over me

I have always known that God is and will never cease to watch over me stop But this past week I have become aware of the fact that not only God is watching over me but he has a lot of other "angles" you could say that are helping him out stop Thank you! All of those who are secretly and openly watching over me stop

Obanda?