18 and a beauty queen

Ok, so Thursday was my birthday.
Honestly it has been the worst birthday yet.
Don't get me wrong I ended up having a really nice party and I loved it. Alas it didn't turn out as planned.
Let me start from the beginning.
On Wednesday the day before my birthday I got braces.
The day of my birthday was the same day as Brainbowl competition so most of my friends weren't at school. However, most of them didn't even remember... I had to tell them. Even though I had been announcing it all week. Also, my band director wasn't there which meant I never got sang too.
Then i was suppose to hang out with my boyfriend after school. But is dumb teachers gave him a lot of home work so i came home and did nothing but play solitaire until my mom got home.
Then we had my birthday dinner that was made especially for my special day and I couldn't even eat it because my teeth hurt so bad.
Finally I my friend came over and lightened my day with cookies, card and Ern's quote page. Then followed my best friend with a plat of vegan brownies and a balloon. Soon after I got a birthday call from another friend. But my grandparents didn't call, cousins didn't call, my uncles/aunts didn't call, basically none of my family remembered.
On Saturday I planned to host my party at a tea room in down town plant city. It was planned that we would go to the train station and tracks and Hannah would take pictures of me and my friends. Then we would go have tea and the proceed to peruse the thrift shops. I invited 6 friends and only one came. My sister only wanted to take pictures of thing rather then people. And we were only able to go to one thrift shop because people had other things planned.  I wanted to cry all day but i only got 3 hours of sleep the night before so I thought I was just tired. After my party i just came home and slept all the way until 10 when i had to get up for church.
Today i just cried without holding back. This time I knew it wasn't because of my lack of sleep it was just because i had an aweful birthday.
I got to church and again no one sang to me. Sunday school was awful because all three classes where put together and people wouldn't shut up! Then we got to relief society and I went to the bathroom and cried. Because, I didn't belong anywhere. Not with the chatty immature young women, and not with the adults. They would say in the announcements "all the young women going to camp" which excluded me. And then they would say " everyone should attend the relief society birthday party".."are young women invited?".."no" which excluded me. I am stuck in the middle with one friend and no group that welcomes me.
People said to me today. How is it being an adult and I just shrugged my shoulders and they said, "trust me, you will hate it." What really wanted to say was "I already do."

Mom told me today that the loneliness will only continue until I find my eternal mate.... I guess she is right, espcailly at usue. I don't know a soul. We here's to growing up. I really hope my mom is wrong. I don't want to fell alone....