Drum roll please:D(just saw this in my drafts, it was suppose to be published but never was.)

I guess I  haven't told blog world yet but..... I got my Personal Progress Award!

Aren't you proud? I sure am. It was a lot of hard work but i a so glad i did it!

For all those who are unaware of the the Personal Progress Program out there... A Personal Progress Award is an award given to young woman once they complete 6 mini projects ( taking up to an hour or a couple of months to finish) as well as complete atleast10 hour projects for EACH of the 8 sections or values. As well as attend sacrament meeting regularly, live with high standards keep a journal, attend seminary, read the Book of Mormon regularly, and have a testimony of our Savior Jesus Christ .

Now I have not received my medallion in the mail yet but is on the way. For the time being i am working on getting my honor bee which requires me to read the Book Of Mormon again, and serve others for a total of 40 hours.

I can only hope that I will continue to engage in such great virtues and become as President Erza Taft Benson has expressed.. "Give me a young woman who loves home and family, who reads and ponders the scriptures daily, who has a burning testimony of the Book of Mormon. Give me a young woman who faithfully attends her church meetings, who is a seminary graduate, who has earned her Young Womanhood Recognition Award and wears it with pride! Give me a young woman who is virtuous and who has maintained her personal purity, who will not settle for less than a temple marriage, and I will give you a young woman who will perform miracles for the Lord now and throughout eternity."

 I hope to conduct a recognition as soon as i receive it. And boy am I glad it's out of the way!!!

Saved drafts

As I am sitting here cleaning out my blog. Looking at all of the post that I have saved as drafts I realized that this blog has been my outlet. The only think that I can openly pour out my soul into. And although some of the things I have written and not published are just being deleted  I am glad I had some place to write my thoughts down and just get them off my mind. I am a compulsive writer, I write all the time. Most of the time it doesn't make since but it always makes me feel better. Writing down a to do list and organize it in my brain is calming, writing my emotions is relieving effect, and  writing for school work is "doing work".And in the case of my blog some of my emotions just needed to be expressed,and then thrown away for no one else to see. I wish I had saved a lot of my post on my blog as drafts I look back on them and see how naive I was. But on the other hand I am proud of what I have become. Besides, no one really reads my blog. (OK, like two people). . I am glad it's only two people. I don't want the whole world to see me at my weakest.But those two people who do read it  I know they will love me no matter what. 

Good bye old saved drafts- I am sorry you were never published. Maybe someday.

Good night world- or should I say two people who read my blog. 

No concrete

So as you all probably already know, but I will just say it for kicks and giggles. I didn't get into BYU. And as of right now I am scared out of my mind. Scared because I don't know what to do. I had all of these plans and now I am walking on unstable ground. No concrete.
          The night I read my rejection letter, I cried and didn't stop until about two days later. I cried because I wasn't good enough. My plans were shattered and the people I had made plans with were just going to go on and live there lives with out me. It was thrown a curve-ball that hit me right in the head.
           After realizing that crying wasn't making the acceptance letter slowly appear on my computer screen, I began to pray and fast. Although no answer is completely clear-and I don't expect it to be- I now know that BYU isn't where I am suppose to be. I don't know why, I just know.
            However, my grandfather-the one who works and USUE- thinks that I can get a full ride scholarship as an ambassador. Which would be great for me and my families financial situation right now. But it's scary, I don't know a single soul going there.
             I pray that the Lord will lead me to path which I am take. I pray that I be able to have a learning experience. And that I will be able to meet people just as cool Noj NawEcm.- I am sorry we can't go mountain climbing together at BYU.:(

College just around the conner

        I am afraid, until just recently i have been looking forward to graduating and leaving Florida. Then something unexpected happened. I became "attached." Now  I don't want to leave. Because when I leave, all of my life here will stop. I know that when I go to school, I know i will meet a lot of people I have new friends (excuse me while I go into a bratty rant) but i like my friends here,  i am comfortable with my environment. and everyone knows that trying to be friends with people that live 112901283940821378572573489721398479213847 miles away. And when long distance does work both parties have to work extra hard to keep up with both lives.I want to cry now and I haven't left yet. I know that when i finally do leave, I will cry for a cozillion days.

Learning

The past couple of weeks have been a learning experience. From everything to circumcision to rolling a joint. I feel like because I have learned so much I have found out a lot about my personality and who I am.
As most of you know my aunt Leah has had her baby boy. Henry cotton Lowe the 4th. 8lbs 9oz at 2:19 January 11 2012. I call him prince Henry. Anyway, I have spent a lot of my time with Leah and the baby. I have learned what, why, how, and when they circumcise a baby boy. I have learned about breast feeding and everything and anything I need to know about child birth. I think It's scary!!!!! I am freaking out. But I can't wait, I mean I can...
I learned that if you know how to roll a buritio you can roll a joint.
I learned that god loves you no matter what, no matter what choices you make or the people you effect he loves you!!!!

Let me explain, no there is too much, let me sum up

I got to talk to my brother on christmas day
I got to hang with a friend I hadn't seen in awhile
My aunt Jill and uncle David came down for new years with there 4 boys
Had to say good bye to a close friend
Got rejected from BYU-H
I have an awesome boyfriend
Went to Ikea and got a orange umbrella
Going to a dance to night
Got Oxfords for Christmas
Realized I really am going to miss my high school friends
Made new friends with two Hispanic workers at the park
Realized that wickedness is NEVER happiness.
Stood up for something
Got a hair cut
Making a new years resolution to post more on blogger
Had a wonderful meal at whole foods!
Finished a semester of college
Reading crossed-so good!
Got to quote elf in every sentence this Christmas season!
Had an adventure and got to tell a distant friend about it-wish we dis that more often!
Pretty much what has happened since the last time I updated!

Thanksgiving

I am thankful for

1. Family
2. Happiness
3. The gospel 
4. Jesus Christ
5. The world
6. Parades
7. Democracy 
8. Clothes 
9. Facebook
10. Twitter
11. Phones
12. Cameras
13. Tv
14. Movies 
15. Harry Potter 
16. Our Country 
17. Weather 
18. Owl City 
19. Grass
20. Trees 
21. Benny(my dog)
22. Humor 
23. Candy
24. Pies
25. Turkey 
26. Fashion
27. Mothers 
28. Flowers 
29. Owls 
30. Shoes 
31. Bananas 
32. Music 
33. Clarinets 
34. Marching Band 
35. Allgair 
36. Furniture
37. Traditions 
38. EFY
39. Boba
40. Elegance 
41. Dancing 
42. Cowboy boots 
43. Favorite pair of Jeans 
44. Tumblr
45. Cartoons 
46. Fire 
47. Guitar 
48. Piano
49. Singers 
50. Water 
51. Birds 
52. Dogs 
53. Grandparents 
54. Kid History 
55. My job 
56. Children
57. Apple 
58. My car 
59. Daddy 
60. Computers 
61. Parks 
62. Atonement 
63. Gifts 
64. Goodwill 
65. Fast food
66. Soccer 
67. Ocean 
68. My bed
69. Sushi
70. Mountains 
71. Seminary 
72. Ben Wheeler 
73. Hannah 
74. Apostle 
75. Prophets 
76. Rick
77. Beaches 
78. Hair 
79. Salvation Army 
80. Mommy 
81. Sight
82. Sky
83. Pan Am
84. Hipsters 
85. Football
86. Fall
87. Video Games
88. The Hart Of Dixie
89. Home
90. Missionaries 
91. Food
92. Animals 
93. School
94. Laughter 
95. In the Middle 
96. Information 
97. Friends 
98. Kali
99. Snow 
100. Performing Arts