Grateful

Have you ever had the feeling that'll you're hopes and dreams became totally and completely crushed? Live is just that way, and often times you don't see the reason for it until after you have cried a thousand tears. I have to. Be honest when I wasn't accepted to BYU, I was defistated. I have been wanting to go to the Y since I was born. I didn't understand I had good grades, lots of service and extra curriculars not only that but I was a perfect attendee seminary student. I was confused and sad, mostly I was hurt. I would see people how go/went to BYU wear immodest clothing while not on campus, or curse, or lie, even cheat and steal. Didn't I "deserve it more?"

However, I can not express the amount of gratitude I have for the BLESSING it has been to not attend my dream school. Isn't t curious how we think we want something so bad that we are completely blind to other options, and in actuality the other options are BEYOND better for us.

I GOT A SCHOLARSHIP! My dad's business has seen better days and it has emensily blessed my family to have a student government scholarship trust will help pay for school.

I have had the opportunist of a life time.- which is for a whole other blog.

 I am going rot a small college which will help me with my learning disability.

I was able to go through vision therapy this summer  to. Corrector my convergence disorder- again a whole other blog

And last and up-most important thing that I am grateful for is ...
If I would have gone to BYU it would have been for summer session. And you know what that means. I wouldn't have met people who love me, support me, care about me and protect me,
I have been able to attend institute. Where I not only learned about the infinite atonement but was able to meet some pretty amazing people. To name a few: 
Sean D
Ryan T
Elder and sister Manhart
Sandy R
Nate B
Ryan A
Megan
Zack V
Trent 
Todd
Mikela 
Charlie 
And rekindled friendship with Talana, Shelby and Kristen.
The rest of this blog will be dedicated to Sean! 
I love Sean,  I clove everything about him. In my humble opponion we are. "prefect for each other" I am so blessed to have him in my life. He became a best friend that will last forever. I am trully going to miss him. No one has ever been so kind, most of all he is a worthy priesthood holder and servant of the lord. Our time together was short but. I fell I know him like the back of my hand. He can practically read my mind.-cray cray  He was there in my time of need and has taught me so much. I am greatful for his strength and his love. For his courage and his wisdom. I am gratful for hs faithfulness and his diligence to keep all of god commandment. I am grateful for his trust and I would trust him with life. As they say distance makes the heart grow fonder. 

Love you!